prairie life and world view
I think that at 3am our defenses are down, and the uncertainity comes to the surface much quicker and the reality of the level of trust is probably more realistic than when we are more mentally alert and tend to justify things away.
Because 3 am (or 4:30 for me--mountain time) is where the rubber hits the road. That's when I can no longer hide from the stuff I can fool myself about the rest of the time. So basically what Penny said, she just said it better.
I actually have the opposite reaction. I journal and read Bible and pray at 3:00 in the morning. God is very close! By 3:00 in the afternoon, life crashes in way too much and my trust often seems to get swept away.
Thanks for the good comments. Actually Ron what bothers me most about the situation is that even though I do read the Bible and journal in the middle of the night it doesn't help as much as I would like it to at that time of the morning. I suspect it is because I am not really concentrating on it, in the back of my mind I am wondering if I am waking myself up TOO completely to go back to sleep at all. Since I am unemployed it really doesn't matter if I don't go back to sleep then anyway...the perversity of humans. Well, we know what time of day to pray for you anyway! haha Happy honeymoon by the way! =)
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