This afternoon I was visiting with a friend who happens to be a professional counsellor, but I have known him for so long now that he feels no compunction after (frequently) sharing his professional views about my mental state for free, wanted or not! hahaha Today I am so glad he did!
His assessment of my extreme dislike of the telephone is that the degree to which I struggle with phone calls has been exacerbated by the pandemic. The short version in terms that I understand is that with the social isolation that has been going on for such a long time now from the pandemic, has effected me to the point where hearing from friends via phone, is making me feel even worse about our present reality. The longer the calls go on, the worse I am subconsciously feeling about the enforced distance between myself and the caller. It sounds odd at first because so many of the people I talk to on the phone are miles, provinces, countries away from here, so even with out the social isolation brought about by the pandemic, it is unlikely I would be seeing any of them much more than I am now!! I have noticed too, if I am being honest, that as long telephone chats progress, I find myself becoming depressed and thinking how much nicer it would be to be able to chat in person. So, how possible would that be anyway when the person I am talking to is in Nova Scotia or Tokyo or New York??? His advice to me is to start taking more and more calls from everyone who wants to talk on the phone. I can learn to train myself to stop thinking about distances and isolation and get a handle on the depression that happens when I am on the phone. My response is very Anglican litugy: "I will with God's help!" I have hope now!
I love my friend. He helps me a lot. He gives me many ideas of things to try. I want to avoid all our visits turning into free therapy sessions, but lately he has been a wonderful help. He gave me some reasons as to why I am struggling with extended phone conversations, has given me a reason to learn to start enjoying them again, a few tips on how to implement more joy in conversations, to think of how wonderful it is to be in contact with family and friends far away and not dwell on the enforced separation....SO unrealistic to feel that way, because it is not COVID as much as it is finances that keep me from visiting all of them in person.
A most helpful friend, my counsellor friend. Thank you.
My husband had a very successful class this morning. There was a lot of discussion among the participants, lots of questions, lots of interest in the subject matter, lots of new ideas to be considered by everyone, including my husband. He was so happy afterward he was bubbling over with enthusiasm. THIS is the husband I know and love!! He decided at 4pm that he MUST have fish and chips.....IMMEDIATELY!! So, off to Knotted Thistle pub we went, orange shirts and all. While the chips are a bit "meh" there, the battered fish is scrumptious. The mushy peas are pretty good too!! I decided to throw all dietary caution to the wind. I had the spinach/artichoke three cheese dip and it was FANTASTIC!! There were 3 large artichoke hearts in the dip to pull out and feast on. The bread triangles were like thin, soft pizza crust. Although I could only safely eat about half of it, what I had was wonderful. That is the second time in a month I have eaten some kind of cheese dip as a meal....bad, bad, bad....that will be the end of that for a LOOOOOONG time!! Sure was a wonderful meal for tonight though!!
More food facts: I have to think of something very simple and specific to feed our newly retired Bishop and his wife next Monday when the come for lunch, our last visit before they move overseas! He has severe dietary issues but at least I know what he can and cannot eat. They are moving back to the UK in about 2 weeks' time and he is already trying to convince my husband that we MUST come to Scotland to see them. They are living near Loch Ness and the Urquhart Castle. Oooh, how my husband would love to go. Our former bishop has accepted a 1/2 time position in the area as a parish priest and thinks it would be great if my husband came over as an interim priest for a few months at some church or other in the area. Hmmmmm....I think not......as much as going to Scotland for 4 months would be wonderful, working as a priest there is not what he needs right now. Thankfully he is aware of that, hahaha. I surely would love to go to Scotland though....maybe some day....?? Lord??? One of his local colleagues is going on sabbatical soon and will be spending several months as an interim priest at a church in Egypt!!
Well, it has been a busy, informative, learning experience of a day.......all good!