Woke up this morning with a raging bladder infection and an ice covered car, parking lot and back porch steps. Gag!!! However, my husband woke up just before 9am and was more than willing to take me on the icy streets to the walk in clinic. God bless him!!!! I told him to go home to wait for my call for a ride home because I knew I would be stuck at the clinic for awhile waiting to see the walk in doctor and another even longer time while waiting for a prescription to be filled. As a matter of course, he asked me if I had my phone with me and of course I left it sitting on my desk at home, so I asked him to leave me his phone and I could call him on the landline. AND also "of course" he didn't have his phone with him either. So, off he went to get my phone and return to the clinic to give it to me....again with the fishtailing on the solidly icy streets. Sigh....he is the MOST patient man.
A big joy for me: the walk in doctor for the day is my very own doctor!! So, not only did I get a prescription filled out, I was able to ask her a question I had about the muscle relaxants I am taking for my hip issues. YAY!! There was an hour wait for the prescription at the pharmacy, so rather than call my husband out AGAIN, to come pick me up, then bring me back to pick it up probably ten minutes after we arrived home, I just sat on a rather uncomfortable chair beside the pharmacy department. As I sat there, legs crossed and hoping there would be no "sudden urges", I noticed that on a bunk end directly across from me were 8 packs of purse sized tissues that I have been trying to find for months!! So, I grabbed two of the 8 packs and hobbled up to the cashier to pay for them. That wasted five minutes of my time before returning to the pharmacy chairs. YAY! hahaha After wating for about 40 minutes in total I decided it was worth going back to the Pick Up counter to at least ask if my prescription was ready and it was! The pharmacist had just brought it to the front for dispersal. YIPPEE! As soon as I had it in my hot little hands, I called my husband and enjoyed standing outside in the warming air to wait for him. Standing was much more comfortable than spending one more minute in that chair!!
Tonight we are supposed to be going to a birthday dinner for a good friend, but I am guessing I am going to have to send my husband there on his own. It will be a large group of partyers, so he will have just as good a time without me. I have already cancelled my weekly coffee visit with my friend tomorrow morning. We are having a small group of friends over for a turkey dinner on Friday evening, so I need to do some cleaning and preparing of the suite and today is not the day for that now. Sigh...
So many things in life do not turn out the way we plan or hope for, but things do turn out eventually.
Nan sent me the most wonderfully accurate description of grieving and I am going to keep it in my heart because I know my reaction to losing my husband, should he depart ahead of me, will be very similar to hers. The quote goes like this and I am sorry but I do not know who the author is:
"The presence of that absence is everywhere."
If you have lost someone dear to you then you will totally vibe with that statement. Grieving is a very individual affair, but I think the statement succinctly sums up the process for most people. Tough times....